On being informed you’re just an optional for someone who means the world to you that for him you’re just a game not someone to love.
Fearing to let your friends know him because you know you’re just a pirate for a season but still you love him that you can’t think of letting him go.
You’ll be on date with him knowing that he’s thinking about someone else but you know you can’t control his mind, all you’ve do is hope.
He’ll take the phone you’ll listen to those sweet words and those names he calls you and you’ll feel cheap in his eyes but still you love, you hope.
At night you can’t sleep thinking about how he’s fucking loving touching that girl, you know that you’ll never be the girl worth the fight for him.
To him you are just an easy target why bother how you feels, you’ll never be the mother of her kids why bother think of your life, he is selfish.
Next year her dream girl will be announced to be having a wedding in upcoming days and also to be having a children and he’ll call your number.
Take the phone and feel the warmth of his voice again he tells you he needs you; inform yourself this is just a favor from you nothing special.
When you meet him at his apartment, don’t think for just a second that he cleaned the apartment to impress you as far you remember you’re an option.
When he comes to welcome you do not think for just one second that he’s wearing that cologne for you, remember that you’re just a call way for him.
When he holds you do not count how many seconds left for his lips to touch yours recall that when he left you, you were as useless as scrap.
When he tells you that he missed you remind yourself that you’re not special, you’re just a library where he goes to read when he’s bored.
After the visit to his home you’ll go home feeling butterflies in your stomach thinking that maybe your dreams are going to become true for once in life.
In the morning you’ll wakeup feeling like you could go to his apartment and fall in his arms and tell him how you couldn’t sleep thinking about him.
You’ll talk to yourself “let me give him space and make him want me, make him miss me as much as I do” you’ll find yourself waiting forever.
Next week you’ll see his relationship status “In relationship with Chingalinga” he never thought about you like Jason thought about Cheyenne.
You’ll go in your bedrooms and start crying until your eyes become raising and asking yourself does he fall for their look like arranged paintings?
You’ll feel like writing his name everywhere in the middle of nowhere because in Kinyarwanda they say: “USHAKA GUKIRA INDWARA ARAYIRATA”.
Do not blame yourself for loving until it hurts it only means that you’re strong, do not run after him, you can survive and love someone else again.
She must be his favorite museum where he learns his past, present and discovers his future; she must be the girl of his dreams who make him happy.
You are just memories shop where he goes to remember how much he is loved!